October 11th, 2013 (07:38 pm)
I'm not an alien, I'm... : accomplished
current song: 'Hello ma Baby'--Arthur Collins
I'm a little amazed right now, because... I wrote. And not just "wrote", but... wrote.
I know I've been a right-shit, not having updated ANY of my WIPs in so, so long, especially since I stupidly took on so damned many in the last few years. You probably barely friggin' remember half of them, and wouldn't blame you if you said, "Pah, I have no faith in this ingrate!" But, in case I haven't completely annihilated the C/Z fandom's faith in me, I'd love to share? :)
In all serious, honest-of-honesty, I've been going through a super-heavy, terrible struggle when it comes to writing. I've gotten some story-work done, like my Torrin!fic and other quickies, but when it comes to the real MEAT of what I write, HOW I write and WHY I write, I've hit one of the biggest, most frustrating blocks I've ever encountered. It got to a point a few days ago, when I'd once again opened one of my WIP docs to try and 'recapture' and failed at getting anything done in it, where I'd actually cried and ranted about how horrible it felt, not being able to write what I so truly love. I've been in a world of doubt as to just what I'm able to do, IF I'm able to do it; if giving-up on fandom is an option when deep in my heart of hearts is most definitely not. But at this very moment, having gotten through a tough bit where I just didn't know what the FUCK to do, I feel like a floodgate or two's opened up, and shit's come a bit more clearer. I don't want to be too optimistic. But still.
I have to thank a certain someone dearly for THIS bout of creativity... this isn't your official birthday gift, verangel, but since you'd helped me through and inspired what was YOUR STORY to BEGIN with, I can only sit here and mourn the fact that you're not here, right in front of me, to glomp, hug, squish, squash, squishle, squashle, and other some-such grabby-vernacular. So much love, all for you. :D
So, here we go!
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Title: Ezekiel's Way--14
Pairing/Characters: C/"E", OMCs, Mr. and Mrs. Connor
Genre: AU period-piece, circa 1905
Author's Note: For my sweetheart, verangel
, a lovely friend and confidant. :)
Disclaimer: Don't own!
Synopsis: Casey fights to help Ezekiel acclimate to his 'new world'.Previous Parts( Do I... love you well?Collapse )